Its been about four weeks and I really had to put my thoughts together before writing about this. I also wanted to have some reflection on the situation.
I had a setback in my mind, but now I see it as an opportunity to show that Jesus is always with you, you should never give up. I was called by the superintendent of the contracting firm that I was doing the single family homes for in Stanford and told I was being replaced. She said my drawings were insufficient. (That is the nice version). I asked, "how I can I fix this? how can I make this right?" She said, "you can do nothing, I have someone else ready to take your job." I was surprised, devastated, humiliated, and I felt like a failure.
Surprised because I was given no reason to know that my drawings were insufficient, none. There were no comments or statements to me that I needed to fix my drawings, so this was a huge surprise. Second, I felt humiliated because when your work is rejected you feel rejected and this is the feeling that truly sucks. And a failure.......well Mr. Know-it-All told me to stop saying that after I described myself as a failure (probably too many times), in the days ahead, but that's how I felt. So then I did what any normal girl would do; I cried to my mom who is always there for me and I thought she would let me whine, but she told me to pick myself up, be the fighter that I am, and to put on my big girl panties.
Since thinking a lot about the entire situation I have found that there was no justification for the loss of the job. I was never told there was a problem with my drawings until that fateful day when I was told I lost the job. Now that I look back I see there was lack of communication to me in order to push me out. The contracting firm didn't want me to fix the problem and they already had someone else lined up to replace me. I was kept out of meetings that I should have been a part of and I have figured out that really it boils down to money which is the root of all kinds of evil. The contracting firm found someone cheaper and broke their contract with me. This I am sure of.
And why am I being so transparent? Because this is the only way I know how to be and I feel that this is the best way for me to be a witness for Jesus' love. Since this I have found peace in my Jesus who is so gracious to me in all things. I held on to His promises. He is my Rock. The miracle for me in all of this was, the phone call was on a Friday afternoon and by Sunday morning I was still hurting in my heart. I went to church and was given an encouraging word from God in the sermon that day. What a blessing! I cannot say how blessed I felt when God had a special word for me that day. I felt loved.
So all of this to say, this is real life. Not everything goes easily in life, not everything goes smooth, but Jesus is there every step of the way. And since all of this He has brought more jobs into my little cabinet life and I am swamped, in a good way....
Thank you so much for reading, thank you for following, I always want to be transparent and I will end with this;
Never. Give. Up.
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